I’ve always had an interest in hand lettering, but it has really been in the last few years that I’ve tried to make it a part of my every day life. I’ve been doing graphic design for over 10 years and although I enjoy it, sometimes I really love putting away the computer and taking pencil to paper to create. Since I started lettering it has felt important. Not just because I like doing it, but because I have felt God guiding me and encouraging me to develop and share this skill.
One week after my second son was born I was still in the middle of the baby blues. I was doing a lot of crying and just not feeling like myself. I was feeding him and looking over at my stack of lettering books and sketches on my desk. The thought came to my mind that I needed to help other moms who were feeling just like I was. I knew that God wanted me to use my lettering to help encourage other moms. In that moment I made a list of things that I knew I needed to hear and believe to help me through this hard time, “You are not alone. You can do hard things. You are brave.” These were the inspiration for the lettering on Dear Mama prints.
As my son grew I moved passed the baby blues into depression. It wasn’t constant, but it was there. There is a specific day that stands out one month after he was born. It was a really hard day. I felt sad and overwhelmed and I just didn’t want to be a mom anymore. I wished it would all go away. After dinner, my husband suggested I go for a drive to take a break from the kids.
Most of the day I had kept it together, just kept on pushing through. I kept my mind busy with tasks so I wouldn’t think about how I was feeling. As I got into the car all of those pent up feelings came out. I barely made it out of the driveway before I burst into tears. As I was driving, I was thinking, who can I call? I should talk to someone. But I didn’t know who. I kept thinking of people, but then the voice in my head would say, “You shouldn’t bother them. What would you say to them? You’re going to call someone while you’re sobbing? No one can help you.” So, I just drove. For an hour. And I prayed. I laid all my sorrows at the Lord’s feet. Then I bought some ice cream and went home.
In the days after this experience I wondered what does a mama do when she has no where to turn? When she needs someone to talk to or needs encouragement, but doesn’t know who to call? What does a mama do when she is having negative thoughts about herself and her abilities and she has not one to help her reframe those thoughts to be positive? What does a mama do when she doesn’t want to be a mama anymore? What does a mama do when she doesn’t feel God’s guidance anymore? Or is angry at Him for giving her such a hard trial with postpartum depression?
It all just clicked for me. God wanted me to use my lettering to create meaningful, positive, faith-based artwork for mamas to place around their homes to help them have positive thoughts about themselves and to help them feel encouraged. On the back of each piece of artwork there was supposed to be a letter from one mama to another. So that if a mama didn’t have someone to turn to in her moment of need she could read this letter and know that she is not alone and that there is hope.
The art I create is for all you mamas who need to be reminded that you are loved, you are good and you are enough. I know how hard motherhood can be and I want you to know that things do get better and that you are not alone.